who i am

who i am...
this is not a question, but a statement.
this is who i am....

i am a woman of life and love
full bodied
and full bellied in wisdom and beauty
i am a woman filled with faith
and doubt
and indecision
and trust
and kindness.
i am a woman of laughter and light
that can't be taken from me
no matter what
it is who i am

i am a woman who:
prefers to be barefoot
wears weird hippie clothes
cries for no reason
has stretch marks
hates lipstick
loves to kiss
loves to touch
loves sweat pants
needs to feel protected
i'm creative,
and intense,
quirky,
clumsy,
gullible,
sensitive,
strong,
intuitive,
and still learning...
not only about myself
but of this wild world that surrounds me everyday.
i pride myself in still knowing i have a lot to learn.

all of who i am
wants to belong to you
but for now
i am walking away
because
i am a woman who deserves love.

sometimes i feel that there's nothing that could ever hurt me
as long as you are near me
close to me
and protecting me
but
who will protect me from you?
you are a bet i am not willing to play right now.
i will love you my whole life
and if you return to me
ready to grow and learn and change
with me
i will stand by your side
proud
and sure
that i am exactly where i was meant to be
but until then
i need to be who i am
without you.

my best friend

i think i have the most amazing best friend in the whole world.
and i could write alllllll day about the many things she has done for me, the way she loves me, and the fun times we have had together....
but today i only want to write about what she did for me this past Friday.

My phone rang around 8:15 am and she told me she would be at my house around 10:00 am to pick me up.
I was told to not worry about any of the things i had scheduled to do that day, pack a bag with a change of clothes, bathing suit, and a towel, and i was not to eat breakfast.
She picked me up and before getting into her car she made me repeat, "what ever is on my seat is mine to keep"
Sitting on my seat was a book, card and other little goodies.
In the card was the money i needed for a day up in the Indian Springs, Idaho Springs.

After some breakfast, we spent the day in the mountains, soaking in spring pools, slathering weird mud on our bodies just to watch it dry, we snuck into a private pool room and quickly left after finding a nasty hair ball on the wall :).....it was awesome!

I have no idea what i did to deserve such a friend, but i am thankful for her everyday.

I love you Beavis, Brie Brie, Mort, Skeeter.....(take your pick of the nicknames you have had over the years).

I love you so much. You will forever be my best friend