Its amazing to me that our progress in life
or love
isn't felt
or isn't clear
until you are placed into a situation
where you can compare where you have been
to where you find yourself.
I didn't know how far away i was from you
and how far beyond my heartache i had reached
until i had you next to me again.
ALL of you will forever be familiar to me
and yet our time together felt unfamiliar
as i remain distant and a little weary.
I felt imaginary barriers and brick walls surrounding me
protecting me
and possibly also protecting you
from us colliding into each other again.
The brick wall that i have built
was put up one brick at a time
with very specific intentions
purpose
and reasons that i shouldn't have to explain to you.
I trust in it's purpose.
And i will leave it where it stands
until YOU
NOT me
dismantle it
one brick at a time
carefully, tenderly, and with intention
just as i put it up.
I can only pray you have what it takes to reach me again. XO
