ME - my angry rap song

ME
with my jet black hair
and hippie clothes
wanted you
with your buggy blue eyes
and Tabasco addiction
i shoulda told you long ago
if you cant handle MY heat
get yo ass out the kitchen.

you talk so sweet
and touch me the way you do
you made me melt
remember?
you should
i left my wet all over you.

ME
with my navy blue eyes
and sweet patchouli scent
craved you
with your beer guzzling
powder snorting
"yeah buddy" ways
it all disgusts me now
and the pictures of you and Nikki??
fuck you, asshole!
makes me sicky sicky.

in you
i see the good
but you show me the bad
you haven't done a single thing to earn me,
you STUPID FUCKING lad.
this was supposed to be fun
you're supposed to be my friend
but your lies, games, and ghosts
have brought us to a bitter end.

ME
with my witty and vulgar lyrics
in a moment lacking spiritualityyyy
I'm pushing through hurt and anger
and I'm sure i sound quite mean.
but I'm doing the best i can
so just relax and let me jam.

i wont forget our sweetest moments
the memories bring me to tears
our scrabble games, spots and sides
and the lasagna you never made.
but my frown cancels the smile
i don't want to remember you at all right now
can you honestly blame me, Kyle?

so
ME
with my voluptuous plus bod
and amazing cocker spaniel
are letting go of this desire for you and the plans that we have made.
you've left a scar
i wont lie like you do
I'm still a little banged up
shit, i'm still two shades of black and blue.
but lets not kid ourselves
as hard as this has been
the heartache you put on me
ain't got shit on your best friends'
-no blood shed
-no emotional riot
i guess you were right
I'll never love you like i did Wyatt.

what?
whats that face you make or emotion you taste?
are you upset by how i feel?
oh come on now, tough guy
deal
I'm just doing my best to keep this shit real.

enjoy your life, KP
i hope you find peace
at the end of each day
always remember
you were god damn lucky to have ME.

My 33rd Birthday

Today
on my 33rd Birthday
i am experiencing several different emotions-
overwhelmed with love
still processing some sadness
but most importantly reminded of who and what i am
and the many many blessing i have in my life.

I'm brought to tears as i think about how richly
fiercely
and completely
i am loved by the people in my life.
My gained perspective today
or i should say
especially and specifically today
is that i feel lucky that i don't have people in my life that DON'T richly
fiercely
and completely love me.
They find their way out of my life
with or without my help.
For this i am beyond thankful.
Today, i feel completely supported by the Universe that surrounds me.

I am rich.
I am blessed.
I love who i am.
I think that's the best we can hope for, maybe ever, in our lives.

This next year holds plenty of miracles
lessons
tears and laughter
love
love loss
trials and triumphs for me
--i have no doubt--
and i welcome every experience headed my way.

I love you all so much.
Thank you for being my cheerleaders, counselors, shoulders, companions, and supporters.


I'll leave you with a couple songs.
XOXO La


Fireflies
By Faith Hill




Watch Me Walk
By Keri Noble

My loud, dancing, tacky and fabulous dress

Today

I am covered in a yellow and green tie-dyed dress.

It's unbelievably tacky and LOUD with color

The black embroidery at the bottom of the dress

as well as around my neck

gives it a hippie-bohemian flavor that i could eat up all day long.

It hangs off my body

almost touching the ground

coming to a point in front and back.

It swirls and sways as i walk

never clinging to my curves

it just dances around me as i move.
It's feel is soft
its energy brilliant and fun
and i'm certain that if this dress could talk
it would be almost as funny as yours truly. 

It's fabulous.

The vibration and influence of the colors that surround me today

have lifted my spirits

eased my discomfort

and reminded me of who i am.
And i love it.

Funny how a loud, dancing, tacky and fabulous dress can do that for a girl.

Thank you, dress. You are my new favorite thing ever.